Thou Shall Not!

How many times have you started your day in a goodish mood, surprisingly happyish upon waking, just to have it all go to hell cuz of one person you let into your personal thoughts or space? Sometimes it happens before you are even aware of what is going on. When that person walks away, you’re like…damn.

When you work with the public, it’s hard to not let others attitudes and personalities interrupt your mood. Good or bad. Some are infectiously good and some are just horribly horrible. You work in the same place long enough, you get to know who to speak at length with and who to try to stay away from.

So what do you do when these people are considered family or a close friend? Most everyone will consider it taboo to let yourself stay away from family or close friends. But, what if this person can turn your good day into a bad day at the drop of a hat. What if?

I say you have to give yourself permission to allow yourself space. If you know that this person is toxic to you in any way, you may need to separate yourself to some extent. You are allowed to say no when they want to see you. You are allowed to decline that call when you see their name. You are allowed to unfollow on social media when it’sconstant negativity. You are allowed to not read that text when you get it and think to yourself “oh hell no, I do not have time for this today”. It doesn’t matter who it is, give yourself permission to take a breather.

Your energy, your thoughts and your mood are yours. If you can help it, don’t let someone else interrupt what could be an awesome day for you. Set boundaries and limitations for yourself and others. Keep your bubble closed whenever possible and when all else fails, grab yourself a big ol stick of sage and then see who doesn’t come around anymore 😉🤪

Quiet Mornings

There is something to be said for waking up before anyone else. Especially on a cool, quiet, Sunday morning. I usually gripe about waking up before my alarm goes off but at least I get to wake up rested, and this morning I get to enjoy my coffee in silence without alarms going off and rushing people out the door.

I have no real direction in where I’m going with this blog today. Sporadic thoughts and no real rhyme or reason. Very seldom do I actually sit and enjoy quiet time. I always feel that I should be doing something. I mean there really is about 1000 other things I could be doing right now instead of this. However, that will always be the case and I don’t think those things will ever really go away. So today, at this moment I choose to do nothing. Nothing except sit here on my back porch and enjoy it.

Life seems to have taken over and there are things that used to bring me a small sense of peace and joy that I rarely, if ever, do anymore. Most of the time I never realize that it’s happening until one day I do something and remember, “Oh yeah, this is something I enjoy, I should do it more often.”

Reading is one. There was a time when you would never catch me without my face in a book. I could read a book in a day or two. Now I can’t remember the last time I read one. Or which book I stopped on in some of my favorite series. I have no less time now than I did before but for some reason it just feels that way.

Writing was another one. If I didn’t have my face in a book, I had a pen in my hand. Writing about anything and everything. The seasons, the Moon, feelings, joy’s, triumphs, phases, etc. I still have most of my writings and will pull them out every once in a while. When I read them I’m like, “Wow, I wrote this? It’s actually really good. Who was this person?”

Nature. I used to spend so much time with it, in it, feeling it and becoming it. Trees, flowers, weeds, the Moon. There is something about working with your landscape, untouched, and becoming part of it rather than destroying it and making it something it’s not. There’s a flow to nature and everything in it and when you become in tune with that, the energies are far superior to anything you’ve ever imagined and there really is nothing like it.

I guess what all these thoughts are aiming towards is don’t forget who you are. So many things in life can take over and make you something you’re not without you even realizing it. Whether it’s a job, kids, a relationship, a move. Always try and keep some of what makes you happy a part of you. Grab a book, write something down, sit under your favorite tree…or do all 3 at the same time. Allow yourself to do what makes you feel good and something that makes you, you.

Positive Vibes Only

“She is at a place in her life where peace is her priority and negativity cannot exist, most of the time”

Sometimes this is easier said than done. I do strive to make a positive spin out of almost anything that can and will be thrown my way. However, when you have a million things coming at you and no answers or solutions, it can be trying. Also, downright frustrating as hell.

I also know that everything typically always works out alright. Maybe not always the way I think it will, but I generally come out on the otherside of whatever it may be in a good place.

That doesn’t always make the process easy or bearable. Sometimes we just have to live in the negative for a moment to be grateful for when it is over. Knowing that somehow, some way, things will turn out ok.

My brain goes a million miles a minute on any given day. Thinking, processing, wondering…it can at times be a complete jumbled up pile of crap. If someone asked me what I was thinking I wouldn’t have a clue as to where to begin. It could be a hundred different things at any moment having nothing and everything to do with one another.

I have gotten much better at dealing with this over the years. Used to, I would be a complete basketcase and be so deep in my own head I wouldn’t be able to find my way out. Sometimes not even be able to function. Thankfully that isn’t the case anymore. I have friends and family that have helped me tremendously overcome that side of myself.

I have been on mood stabilizers and antidepressants. For many people they work wonders. They didn’t work for me, weren’t my thing. I didn’t feel I should have to take a prescription to make myself able to deal with my life, to be happy and functioning. I have luckily found supplements that I have been taking over the past year. They have given me yet another level of functionality for which I am extremely thankful.

I know that things always turn out the way they are supposed to. No matter how unexpected that outcome may be. I have learned to live and work through whatever the process may be. I can deal with it no matter how difficult it may seem at the time. Things always turn out ok and sometimes far better that what was expected in the first place.

Magic Monday

It’s Monday!

For most this means back to work and routine. For me, it means that I got up and got the boy on the bus. Now I will sit here, on the back porch, and drink my coffee till the very last minute before I have to get ready for work. Of course, there are a thousand things I could be doing around the house instead.

I always use the word “routine” very loosely. Sometimes kids, family and work mean last minute. Now that we have a granddaughter pitter pattering around the house, it has become even more “live by the moment”. I’ve learned to go with the flow. If I tried to live a structured daily routine, I would probably lose my mind.

I have learned over the years to live each day as it’s own. It is very rare that everyday can be navigated in the same way. Things can change in a split second and you will have to adjust accordingly. So, I don’t fight it, I live it. Sometimes it’s easy and other times it’s a complete nightmare. Sometimes there is no rhyme or reason and other times it flows just right. That is just life.

Enjoy it. Go with the flow. Be spontaneous. Do something out of the ordinary. Surprise someone. Make someone smile. Make yourself smile. Pick someone flowers. Pick yourself some flowers.

Life is simply a series of moments and once they’re gone, you can’t get them back. So why not make them count?