Ahhhhhh yes…life. It’s a wonderful, funny, frustrating, lovely, exciting, beautiful, infuriating thing. It can take over without you even being aware of what is happening, and before you know it, you are stuck in a stupid routine you didn’t even want in the first place.
How many times have you set out to do something. You started doing it and then things get all flustered and hectic and that “thing” just kinda slips away. It is something you really want to do, everyday, for you. To keep your sanity, to keep a small piece of you in play…but then life takes over and suddenly you are doing everything for everyone else, again. Why do our mom brains, wife brains, work brains allow us to forget our me brains?
Structure doesn’t work well for me. I have tried. Same things, same time everyday and it just doesn’t work. I will get more stressed out trying to do that than just letting things play out. My work schedule isn’t the same on a day to day or even a week to week basis. Therefore, I have to adjust. My family has to adjust. Sometimes it just feels like it is chaotic all the time.
Rarely, if ever, do I have downtime. My downtime consists of laundry, picking up, fixing dinner, etc. On occasion, I can sit down with my crochet, sit here and write something like this or just sit and do nothing. I thoroughly enjoy the crochet, writing and nothing. But! When I do that and finally decide to do laundry, I find 4 loads in the washer, not washed, that someone just wanted to get off the floor. Why would someone else actually want to do a load??
I understand that when you become a wife, mom, grandma, and work outside the home there are certain things you sign up for. I get it. However, why do we let those things always override ourselves? The age old question…
Soooooooo. Back to my laundry and picking up before I have to go to work and pull a very, extremely busy late shift 😒🤷♀️