One Reason

This is just one reason I need
My “mom/grandma juice”
My “energy in a glass”
My “gut balancing trio”
My “there is no way I could have done this the way I was feeling 2 years ago magic drink”

I gotta keep up. Wake up. Stay up and keep moving cuz she isn’t slowing down any time soon. How could I not wanna get healthy for her?

You would think that your own children would be motivation enough, but for me that wasn’t the case. You get so caught up in the every day life and go through the motions, all while telling yourself it’s normal to feel bad all the time, tired all the time, hurt all the time, headaches all the time…but it’s not.

Most people have no idea how good they are supposed to feel. I know I didn’t.

One Reason

This is just one reason I need
My “mom/grandma juice”
My “energy in a glass”
My “gut balancing trio”
My “there is no way I could have done this the way I was feeling 2 years ago magic drink”

I gotta keep up. Wake up. Stay up and keep moving cuz she isn’t slowing down any time soon. How could I not wanna get healthy for her?

You would think that your own children would be motivation enough, but for me that wasn’t the case. You get so caught up in the every day life and go through the motions, all while telling yourself it’s normal to feel bad all the time, tired all the time, hurt all the time, headaches all the time…but it’s not.

Most people have no idea how good they are supposed to feel. I know I didn’t.

When Life Takes Over

Ahhhhhh yes…life. It’s a wonderful, funny, frustrating, lovely, exciting, beautiful, infuriating thing. It can take over without you even being aware of what is happening, and before you know it, you are stuck in a stupid routine you didn’t even want in the first place.

How many times have you set out to do something. You started doing it and then things get all flustered and hectic and that “thing” just kinda slips away. It is something you really want to do, everyday, for you. To keep your sanity, to keep a small piece of you in play…but then life takes over and suddenly you are doing everything for everyone else, again. Why do our mom brains, wife brains, work brains allow us to forget our me brains?

Structure doesn’t work well for me. I have tried. Same things, same time everyday and it just doesn’t work. I will get more stressed out trying to do that than just letting things play out. My work schedule isn’t the same on a day to day or even a week to week basis. Therefore, I have to adjust. My family has to adjust. Sometimes it just feels like it is chaotic all the time.

Rarely, if ever, do I have downtime. My downtime consists of laundry, picking up, fixing dinner, etc. On occasion, I can sit down with my crochet, sit here and write something like this or just sit and do nothing. I thoroughly enjoy the crochet, writing and nothing. But! When I do that and finally decide to do laundry, I find 4 loads in the washer, not washed, that someone just wanted to get off the floor. Why would someone else actually want to do a load??

I understand that when you become a wife, mom, grandma, and work outside the home there are certain things you sign up for. I get it. However, why do we let those things always override ourselves? The age old question…

Soooooooo. Back to my laundry and picking up before I have to go to work and pull a very, extremely busy late shift 😒🤷‍♀️

Mind Reader?

Mom/Wife rant of the day!

How many of us eat, sleep, drink, dream…literally breath our family on a daily basis. Every moment, every thought process, every decision is based on them. Whether it’s if you wash that load of laundry or what you buy at the grocery store. Now, with that same thought, how many of our families do that same thing for us? Or has it become a scenario where all that you do is now expected and God forbid you swerve off course.

Have you actually sat down and told them what you need? What will help you? What will make things easier for you? Or do you just expect them to know that the clean clothes in the laundry basket need to be put away cuz you didn’t have time? Or the trash needs to go out cuz it’s overflowing? For most of us it seems like a no brainer…for others, obviously, not so much.

Now, what if you have repeatedly told them what you need? Asked for help? Let them know what will make you happy and make your life easier but still get not much, if anything, in return. Or they seem to “get it” for a day or two…maybe a week or two, and then it goes back to normal. Frustrating to say the least.

It takes a village. It also takes more than just a mom, or husband, or kids to make a household run smoothly. However, many of us take it under our wing and try to do everything to make everyone else’s life easier, happy and then we get so overwhelmed that we can feel like there is no end to it. We can’t keep up. Some of us don’t have much of a choice and we do the very best we can.

When we finally decide to give ourselves a break, do something we want to do on our day off or realize that load of clothes will still be there tomorrow, I swear I think it throws the entire Universe off kilter. Dinner isn’t ready when it usually is, someone doesn’t have something to wear that they need for tomorrow. Then you feel guilty, cuz you single handedly messed up someone’s day by enjoying yours. (If you even get to enjoy it trying not to feel guilty the entire time). Why couldn’t they do the load of clothes? Already have dinner done? But yet, you come home and everyone is sitting around, doing what they want, waiting…for you. Guess what happens? You say nothing and you scramble to get done whatever needs to be done while, you guessed it, everyone sits around and waits.

So what do we do? We keep doing it. Frustrated, overwhelmed and not very happily. We do what we can to try and keep some kind of peace even if it means we don’t get any.

Rant over. For now…maybe.

Today’s To Do List

My to do list every day, though sometimes I need a reminder! .
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#goodmorning #coffeeplease #happythursday #haveagreatday #almosttheweekend #countyourblessings #practicekindness #letgo #listentoyourself #beproductive #staycalm #positivevibes #letgoofthenegative #youcandoit #youvecomethisfar #organizedchaos #simplycomplicated #beautifulmess #hotmessmom #magicmom #momlife #grandmalife #wifelife #qualityoflife #workingmom #workingwife #workinprogress #perfectpending

What’s Your Path?

What path are you on today? Sometimes we are all ready, set, go on a certain one…then life happens and we have to readjust, adapt, maybe even change our way of thinking. That’s ok…there is always a reason for everything and even though we may not know what that reason is, we have to trust ourselves and our intuitions to help lead us the right way. If you find you end up in the wrong spot, make a new path. .
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#goodmorning #haveagreatday #youaremagic #momsdayoff #lifehappens #intuition #whatpathareyouon #makeithappen #beagoodhuman #organizedchaos #simplycomplicated #beautifulmess #hotmessmom #workingmom #workingwife #momlife #grandmalife #wifelife #makeyourownpath #wheredoyouwanttobe #choiceisyours #makeitinteresting #makeityours #smile #youcandoit #thoughtsbecomethings #findyourreason #magicmom

What’s over there?

Good morning! Happy Monday! What is on the other side of that little hill? Around that bend? Could be good bad 😞 Could be opportunity 🤗 Could be something fantastic 😍 Could be something scary 😖 Truth is, it’s unknown, you won’t know till you get there. So does that mean you turn around and go back the way you came? Or do you keep moving forward, even though it may be scary? .
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No Idea…

Sometimes I really don’t have a clue. This just happens to be one of those times. It’s not just with one thing, it typically seems to be 100 things at once. Which is probably really only a couple things that I turn into 100 things. That makes me shut down, makes my brain shut down, and if it isn’t something mundane and thoughtless, I put it off.

Not that I don’t continue to stress over it, cuz I do. However, the decision making process is nowhere to be found. Usually cuz there are no easy answers. A mom wants her kids to be safe, happy and taken care of. A wife wants her husband to be happy, content and taken care of. Sometimes those two thing can clash and it makes for a very stressed out and emotional wife and mama.

This process can become stagnant if I let it. I will sit and think about it for minutes and hours on end. It actually can cause physical turmoil in me if I let it. That’s when I have to shut it down. Don’t ask me a question about it cuz I won’t have an answer. Better yet, don’t ask me a question about anything unless it’s something simple, like the weather.

There are pros, cons and consequences to every decision. That goes without saying and it is just the way life is. Weighing those out sometimes is impossible. There is not always a good or simple solution.

So, I will ponder. Think. Try. Until something comes to me. Something that will possibly make things easy for everyone involved. Including me.

Positive Vibes Only

“She is at a place in her life where peace is her priority and negativity cannot exist, most of the time”

Sometimes this is easier said than done. I do strive to make a positive spin out of almost anything that can and will be thrown my way. However, when you have a million things coming at you and no answers or solutions, it can be trying. Also, downright frustrating as hell.

I also know that everything typically always works out alright. Maybe not always the way I think it will, but I generally come out on the otherside of whatever it may be in a good place.

That doesn’t always make the process easy or bearable. Sometimes we just have to live in the negative for a moment to be grateful for when it is over. Knowing that somehow, some way, things will turn out ok.

My brain goes a million miles a minute on any given day. Thinking, processing, wondering…it can at times be a complete jumbled up pile of crap. If someone asked me what I was thinking I wouldn’t have a clue as to where to begin. It could be a hundred different things at any moment having nothing and everything to do with one another.

I have gotten much better at dealing with this over the years. Used to, I would be a complete basketcase and be so deep in my own head I wouldn’t be able to find my way out. Sometimes not even be able to function. Thankfully that isn’t the case anymore. I have friends and family that have helped me tremendously overcome that side of myself.

I have been on mood stabilizers and antidepressants. For many people they work wonders. They didn’t work for me, weren’t my thing. I didn’t feel I should have to take a prescription to make myself able to deal with my life, to be happy and functioning. I have luckily found supplements that I have been taking over the past year. They have given me yet another level of functionality for which I am extremely thankful.

I know that things always turn out the way they are supposed to. No matter how unexpected that outcome may be. I have learned to live and work through whatever the process may be. I can deal with it no matter how difficult it may seem at the time. Things always turn out ok and sometimes far better that what was expected in the first place.